Tuesday, 10 September 2013

Lets go this way...Blogtember 2013

 Day 6

Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn 

I figured I'd go with a very September related answer for today's prompt. September is one of my favorite months. It's all about fresh starts, new beginnings, exciting challenges and daunting prospects. September was always about school, college, then finally university and every year had it's own distinct moment when my life took a turn in a new direction. 

Starting university was probably the most distinct September moment! I'd never gone to a place before not knowing anybody, I had always clung to a friend, let them do all the talking and slowly integrated myself in. Although I knew some people who where going to the same university as me, we had chosen completely different subjects! I'd started off with English and Creative Writing, though after a few months I dropped English and moved over to Media Communication studies. 

I knew one girl who would be taking English with me - but we ended up in separate classes. We both started on the same day at the same time so we could at least travel up to the campus together. I was so nervous I almost missed the train! That first day they had all the English classes come together to 'mingle'. As soon as the welcome speech was over we got told to get up and move around the room, say 'hi' to people we didn't know and break the ice. (The first few weeks of university are non stop ice breakers!) I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me - I couldn't do that, I didn't talk to random strangers (I was pretty shy and lacked any kind of confidence around people I didn't know), they had asked me to do the impossible!

The one girl I knew got up and started to walk away, I grabbed my bag and followed her. She stopped and turned, looked me straight in the eye and said, 'we should split up and meet people', gave me a huge smile and bounced off. I must have looked like a deer caught in the headlights, standing there amongst all the empty chairs, the whole room was up and mingling, I'd lost complete sight of my friend, I didn't have a clue what to do.

I could have left.
I could have easily slipped off to the toilet.
I could have gone in search of her.

I didn't. It dawned on me that nobody here actually knew me. They didn't know I was this shy, insecure person, they didn't know me at all. I could be anyone, say anything. And it wouldn't actually matter. This was a completely clean slate - and first impressions stick with a person - I didn't want to be the weird girl who just stood amongst the chairs alone looking scared. How hard could it be to just say 'hello' to someone?

Only one way to find out.

From that moment on my life did take a turn, it's amazing what you can do with a fresh start and a little confidence!

And for the record, I met some wonderful people that day who would never believe I was so shy and insecure, I was the one who approached them first and that small act made a huge positive impression on them! 

1 comment:

  1. That is awesome that you took the initiative to meet new people! I was TERRIBLE with that my freshman year!